Posted by: on 12/30/2008 at 5:12 a.m.
As I look back on 2008 I think of the many things that changed my life. The thought closest to my heart and mind is of a relationship that developed with a little girl named Jessica. The first time I met Jessica she was in the hospital after a recent car accident involving her father and sister. Her father, Mark, and mother, Sherri, adopted Jessica, who was born with a heart condition and mild cerebral palsy when she was a newborn. While the family was in Hawaii a truck hit the family vehicle killing Mark and severely injuring Jessica. As Jessica lay there in her hospital bed she looked up at me, a distant stranger, seeking hope and love. I told her that when she got better I would take her to the racetrack and let her sit in my race car, her simple response was, “Can Marissa go too?” I was blown away. A young girl, suffering life changing injuries, unable to walk, nearly facing death in this battle for recovery simply wanted to share a small joy with her loving big sister. What Jessica didn’t realize was that she showed me what true, unconditional love is. She showed me that no matter the circumstance, no matter the condition of this fragile thing we call life; there is always room for love and consideration.
I would see Jessica every now and then, but my mom would constantly update me on her progress and her heath. Many times Jessica faced a potential end of life. Always recovering, always battling through.
About a month ago Jessica came into my dad’s office for her orthodontic appointment. She was
beaming, the happiest I had ever seen her, and the strongest I had ever seen her. She was becoming a young woman, a strong, beautiful, talented young woman. She had found a true passion in life… art. Her grandmother showed me some of her drawings that Jessica had made prints of and was selling. There were Japanese princesses, and intricate drawings of imaginary figures. But there was one drawing, of a wolf, with his paws extended and his eye bright blue. She humbly thanked me for gushing over her work, no pride, no conceit. Once again Jessica showed me the beauty in life. Her life touched mine in a way that I am sorry Jessica probably never realized.
On Christmas morning, Jessica died of heart failure in her mother’s arms. Only one thing I knew for sure, Jessica’s heart did not fail. It was not weak, or insufficient to support her. In fact her heart supported me, her heart gave me strength. I believe anyone that knew Jessica took strength and courage from her, a simple gift she would unknowingly give to any person in need of hope and faith in the future. Thank you Jessica, my sweet blessed girl, you encouraged me to see the strength in love and life.
Something that gives me hope: The apostle John wrote in 21st book of Revelations verse four, “And God shall wipe away all tears from their eyes; and there shall be no more death, neither sorrow, nor crying, neither shall there be any more pain: for the former things are passed away.”